The beginning of my GAY career!

I was watching Oprah before awhile and it's kind of made me excited to start from the very beginning LOL

Hmmmmmm……..
Since I was little I've been lonely (although I have others brothers and sister but they were not around my age), also I've been shy and I just don't know how to communicate with others since I never had to deal with the real world until college!

When I was around 5 I started to explore a relative and he started exploring me, he was a bit older than me but it's just didn't mean anything at the time.

It's just started when I was 11 or 12 during elementary school and high school when other students started to up use me sexually, and I have no idea how to keep them off me nor to tell my parents or teachers about it because I've been very embarrassed about it, I used to be very bashful guy, prefer to be alone than being around people because I know that whatever I talk about it's will be very sissy for them since I don't slang language like them and because I just keep being quiet most of them time plus I've been "A" student forever and that's just make "F" students jealous (or at least that's what I explained it to my self LOL).
I always had weird feeling around cute guys when I was little; I think I really would love to look as cute as this guy, when I grow older I started to think I really would like to know how does that guy looks from the inside and now I think how large does that guy's cock look from the outside LOL

Anyway I've never been around real gays until the 3rd or 4th course in my college in the year 2002 (when I was 19 or 20), that's when I found out about gay life in Kuwait. But I didn't stick with that group we had a big fight and we all split but I knew through them how to use the internet to chat with other gays (at the time I didn't admit that I am gay yet but I finally realized that I am attracted to men).

I started chatting in Gay channels but I've never meet anybody until the year 2003 or early 2004 when I met a guy (Student in Police school) whose been a year younger than me, we've been chatting for over a year through the internet and later through the phone but they were all decent chats, we never talked about sex!

After his graduation we slept together for the first time (I was 21 and he was 20), it's was oral (mostly kissing and hugging).

Next time we slept together was the time when he asked me to be in a real relationship and he was my first boyfriend!

Later I found out that he was treating me like a TOY I was really shocked that day I just left without saying a word, started my car and left home crying on the way, been depressed for a while, didn't talk to friends, didn't answer any phone calls and feeling extremely stupid.

Always there is a sunrise after each sunset and night.
I decided to pick the broken pieces of my heart and be a slut, as we all know Sluts heels faster!
I believe that there is no man deserve to lose my life with, so I started to have fun, few laughs and leave, I just don't care if he thought that I am a slut or NOT, I ONLY care what do I think of my self!
F.Y.I. I am NOT self centered.